Every day (I think?) I have moments of anger, and moments of sadness. Every day I'm confronted with various choices and possibilities. Every day I encounter conflict of some kind. Every day I encounter something that stirs up irritation and impatience.
Each of these things has the capacity to throw me off kilter, out of balance, and away from my calling to live as a reflection of God. I'm not blame-shifting here, I'm responsible for being thrown off kilter, but there are also things that happen outside of my control that contribute to that possibility.
I suspect the same is true for you.
At home, there are trials and frustrations. There is trauma. There is grief. There is resentment. At work, we have employees that undermine our authority, or coworkers who don't respect us, or who try to make us look bad so that they can get ahead. In our larger community, there are disappointments and petty arguments and factions. Look, we just aren't always the best version of ourselves and that creates problems.
We do not need to be in chaos or crisis in order to dedicate ourselves to the ongoing process of recovery. If we're not dedicated to this process, then we may be dedicated to the process of complacency and backsliding. And if we're dedicated to complacency then our home lives, work lives, community lives, and whatever other lives we may have are unlikely to get any better for us.
We'll be living out of our most basic instincts. And those rarely transform us into the best possible version of ourselves.
So, as you read the remaining days, ask yourself what process you are currently dedicated to. Be willing to question whether or not it is effective. Be willing to consider that a greater level of intentionality may open up the possibilities you need to break the cycle you are currently in.
On the other hand, if you're happy (and you know it), then clap your hands! :-)